Monday, February 16, 2015

The Perfect Storm

It is cold outside. Nose hair freezin' cold.

Don't get me wrong, I love a good cold day. The air is crisp and refreshingly clean. Footsteps crunch on white snow. The New England landscapes covered in piles of the purest white are breathtaking. Something about the chill is energizing.

But these past few weeks have taken it beyond that point of "a good cold day" and right into "how long until spring again?" territory.

The negative temperatures outside combined with the elevated temperatures of the children inside make this the perfect storm.

To me this means extra cuddles with children who don't normally like to cuddle. Extra time to just be around the house to bake fresh bread and put together yummy meals sectioned out perfectly on those Car-themed plates. Extra movies watched. Extra books read. Extra house-destroying-wall-climbing-children-mischief.
But "extra time around the house" with 3 children sick enough to not go out but not so sick as to lose energy can quickly start to make these 4 walls close in in a rather prison-like way. Thankfully I got a bit of a break over the weekend. I snuck away for a few hours on Sunday and then again this morning while Daddy took over things with the kids. I was starting to feel like my head would explode if I didn't get OUT. I'm sure these kids would like a break too...a chance to go outside. But with the fevers plus the negative temps...that is what brings me to the longing for spring (or even just high 20s?) to bust us outta here.
I have been working on contentment with this season now. Finding the beauty in the every day even when it seems IMPOSSIBLE. Long naps, hot coffee, silly smiles, giggles, hugs. long baths, chapter reading from Farmer Boy with Addison saying "get him" when we got the part about the bear in the berry patch, long block building sessions, the feel of the house after the children are finally in bed, the sound of babbling and words, singing "Good Night My Someone, Good Night My Love, I Hope Your Fever Leaves, I Hope You Stop Coughing..." into warm cheeks as little bodies tremble with giggles, Addison being able to tell me that her throat hurts (this is HUGE!!!!), children helping to clean up their messes...and I could go on forever. Because I am surrounded by beauty even when at times I feel like I am being driven CRAZY. I just have to open my eyes and see it right in front of me.

It's hard to imagine with this kind of cuteness that they could be driving me crazy, huh? I think the most mischievous things come in the cutest of packages. Cute is mischief's camouflage. (Also...when did Eli go from baby to the 3rd child toddling around my ankles? I am seriously, seriously outnumbered these days. Good thing I hold the key to the chocolate stash.)
On a different note, I wanted to say thank you to all of you who joined the conversation on the last post. I needed that. I NEEDED it, and I am not embarrassed to say so. I have been sooo burnt out from finishing Motherhood Unexpected. That project was SO important to me, and I am darn proud of myself for finishing it even though it was hard to follow all the way through. Plotting a novel has been something I have been working on for the past 4 1/2 years. It has been my latest "degree" of learning. On top of that, I NEEDED to say those things the way that I said them in that book. I couldn't move on until I did. But it emotionally exhausted me to finally be done with it, and I was having a tough time returning to this blog as I left it. Many of you not only read and supported me through that project, but took the time to comment here about ways that this blog has helped you for however long you have been reading here. Your encouragement means more to me than you will ever know. Thank you!
The fact that this little girl is changing hearts and lives beyond what I could have imagined when I started this blog makes it all so worth it. She is completely amazing, and I am more than happy to share her with you all. The fact that my novel is also making an impact lets me know that I'm not completely crazy to pursue this whole writing thing. (definitely a little crazy...but at least not completely)
So where do we go from here? (besides praying for the weather to stop freezing nose hairs?)

You all reminded me of so many reasons why I started to blog in the first place. I really needed those reminders. Your comment encouragement was a big blogging shot in the arm. The burnt-out-ness is starting to fade. I am starting to feel a bit more like myself. Thank you for helping me reconnect with my blogging roots. Thank you for caring enough to comment and help me reconnect a bit with what this blog is all about. (Some of your comments made me seriously blush. Man, you guys are nice!)

I am going to keep going. Not a ton of posts a week. Probably just 1. Maybe 2 if I'm feeling particularly chatty. But I will be here. This is an important part of me, and it's not time to give it up yet. I will update my facebook page and IG as the spirit pressure...just returning to the fun that I have always found in this.

Can I ask a favor though? Just every once in a while can you hit "like" or comment or SOMETHING just to let me know that someone is out there? I was beginning to think that my site tracker was broken...
Thank you for reading. Thank you for caring. I know I don't know you all personally, but sometimes I really feel like I do, and I am so thankful for all of you.

Keep an eye out for posts of our mundane...and a lot of cute pictures...and maybe some new stuff....and everything and nothing. You're stuck with me now. (-;

p.s. to those who feel led to leave an Amazon review of my would be much appreciated! It doesn't have to be fancy or long...just a sentence of your takeaway or opinion...

p.s.s. send happy, good health vibes our way!

p.s.s.s. and spring temps

p.s.s.s.s. and while we're wishing for things a coffee IV would be nice...

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