I can't even begin to tell you what your encouragement has meant to me. I'm not going to lie- I was quite down after the agent meeting the other day. I guess I thought that a face to face meeting would be different than sending a query email.
Turns out that getting rejected in person is like having the agent delete the email in front of you and then slap you. (no, she didn't slap me...that's just what it felt like)
I wanted to reply back to each of your comments, but my wi-fi at the conference was spotty at best.
While I was driving the three hours back to the airport last night, I was so confused.
I learned so much this past week. But I didn't feel like I had the next step for my book handed to me on a golden platter. I sacrificed so much to go to this conference, and I thought that it would bear more immediate fruit for my book.
Driving three hours in complete silence gave me a long time to think. And pray.
About an hour into the drive, I was analyzing for the billionth time the meeting with the agent vs the workshop of my book vs the individual tutoring with my teacher.
While passing field of dirt on the left and breathtaking rock formation on the right, something just clicked in my mind. All of the pieces from the different parts of the conference melded together to form comprehension for me as a writer. Ideas started coming to me- things I needed to change- ways I can make my book so much better- the reason why the meeting with the agent crashed and burned.
When I got to the airport, I sat with my notebook and wrote down every idea that flooded into my mind during that drive. Idea spawned idea and by the time I landed in Vermont (after flying all night) I knew EXACTLY what I needed to do next on my book.
It's no longer a mystery, and I am beyond encouraged and excited about the next few months as I apply my new knowledge to my work of passion- No Guarantees.
It won't be easy, and I still have many hours to put in. But I'm no longer in the dark.
Hope has returned, and I am thankful. This trip was hard, but it was exactly what I needed exactly when I needed it.
And now? I am home with my twinsies. I missed them so much, and they grew up so much while I was away. I am so thankful for those who sacrificed as well to take such excellent care of them while I was gone. thank you, thank you, THANK YOU.
We will be back to regularly scheduled programing soon....there's NO PLACE LIKE HOME!!!!