Wednesday, November 9, 2011

eye surgery

This morning we headed in bright and early for Addison's Strabismus (misaligned eyes) surgery. As this was Addison's fourth surgery, I was relatively calm about it. But it always makes me a little sick inside knowing how miserable she'll be waking up from general anesthesia- not to mention I had no idea what the recovery would be like having eye muscle cut and restitched.

Addison was in such good spirits and didn't complain once about the fact that she hadn't had anything to eat since her last bottle the night before.
They told me to put her in their hospital gown (which made no sense to me since they were operating on her eyes...why couldn't she just keep her comfy sleeper on?) But obediently, we put on their smallest sized gown...
Addison quickly worked both legs into one leg hole.
I went in with her to the OR (first time I've done this) and held her while they put her to sleep. She was squirming and it took 4 people to hold her down. In one sense it broke my heart...in another, I was PROUD of my little fighter. The gas was bubblegum flavored and she kept exuberantly licking the mask. (After she woke up and was fully concious, the first thing she did was sign "more" LOL)

The surgery was very quick (she was in the OR for maybe an hour) compared to her past surgeries, and literally she was in her recovery room five minutes when they were unhooking her and saying we could take her home. There were no complications in the surgery- it was textbook. We'll know over the next few weeks how well it worked to straighten her eyes, but the surgeon seemed very hopeful.

She did get quite upset waking up from the general anesthesia. I was holding her tightly trying to calm her, but her breath smelled quite strongly of the bubblegum anesthesia and it made me very sick to my stomach...and then when I looked down at the tears she was wiping on my shirt and saw that it was blood, I almost lost it. But mommyhood makes you strong...strong enough to keep comforting through the nausea.

When I was driving her home, I looked back to see this:
Poor baby. As the morning progressed, there was a LOT more blood and crusties around her eyes, but I'll spare you the more graphic pictures (you are welcome)

Addison is NOT a cuddler- she never has let me snuggle with her (it usually results in a black eye or almost loss of a tooth when I try). But when we got home, after a short stint in her crib, all she wanted to do was to be held (but not if I was going to sit down....I had to be walking and moving...WOW she gets heavy after a while) I enjoyed holding her close to me and soothing her best I could....just the fact that she would let me hold her like this for an extended period of time tells you just how poorly she was feeling...
She's now been asleep for over three hours...last I checked on her she had put her head under her pillow to make it darker for herself.

I hate to see her hurting, but I know that this surgery was important so that she can start using her eyes together and hopefully save her from vision loss further on. Thankfully we were able to have it done before she turned 2 as her doctor said that the surgery success rate is then higher.

I have stocked up on m&ms and cheetos (her two favorite things) to continue the healing process after she wakes up...although the m&m stash is taking quite the hit the longer she sleeps (I tried to sleep and couldn't get over the smell of her bubblegum flavored anesthesia breathe that was still haunting me...the m&ms are helping)

Please feel better soon, Addison!!!!

Thank you all so much for your prayers and kind comments. The surgery went as well as it possible could. We are thankful!

25 comments:

  1. So glad all went well!! Surgery is never fun, no matter how many times you've been through it or how 'minor' it may be. Always a big deal for Mom and Dad!
    FYI, we always tell the docs we are keeping Coop in his regular pj's and they don't fight us too much on it. (He hates their pj's, not sure if Addison minds.....). Also, you can ask for an oral pre-medication before the gas/mask in the OR to calm her down so she doesn't mind/fight the mask. Too funny she was licking the bubblegum scent! :) What a cutie.

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  2. Been praying all morning for you and Addison. So glad the surgery went well! Will continue to pray for a quick recovery.

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  3. that blood teardrop stain is the saddest little thing I've ever seen in my life...

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  4. I agree - the blood teardrop stain is heartbreaking!!!! Oh, goodness, your sweet little girl. She's a trooper, as you are, too. I hope everything worked and that she feels back to her usual self soon!

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  5. So glad it went well, but that tear of blood is soooo sad. I can't imagine how you didn't cry yourself seeing that.

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  6. Glad to hear the surgery went well. It is never fun seeing your little one in pain. I hope she starts to feel better soon. Thinking of you all. :)

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  7. What troopers you both are. I was thinking of her this morning. Those little tears would be hard to handle, but we're hoping that this is a big success for her! Lots of love to you, Addison and hope you feel better soon!

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  8. Phew. Glad to hear things went well! The bloody teardrop broke my heart into a million pieces, though. Let me know if you guys need anything! Enjoy the cuddles while they last :)

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  9. The picture with her little teardrop brought tears to my eyes. Poor little baby. That's got to be one of the saddest little things I've ever seen. Sweet baby.

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  10. what a hard day, praying for you guys!!

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  11. So glad it is over with! Hope she'll recover quickly.

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  12. Our son had the same surgery last year. I wasn't prepared for the whole "bleeding from the eyes"-thing! When he got home, he tried to walk around the house. Problem was, his eyes hurt so much he refused to open them. Not a pretty sight! But, the surgery was a success and we pray it is for Addison, as well.

    Grab a couple of those M&Ms for yourself - you've had a rough day, too!

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  13. Poor little thing! I had eye misalignment surgery on both my eyes as elementary school student. It was not fun then, but I'm glad it's been done now. I'm praying she recovers quickly!!

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  14. So glad that all went well with her surgery.That blood stained tear stain was just too sad.Glad she let you cuddle her.Praying you all get a good night sleep tonight.What a sweetie she is.

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  15. Aw, poor Chubbs, it makes me sad to see her like that. Glad the surgery went well, hope she is feeling back to her old self soon. Hugs from Russell and I!

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  16. So glad it went well...thinking of you guys and for a speedy recovery!

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  17. Bless her heart! So glad everything went well and is done with- hope you all have a good week.

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  18. That bloody tear just melted this Grandma heart! So thankful that things went well! Love to you all!

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  19. Such a sweet cuddler. This is hard to go through over and over! I do like the 'more' part the best!!!

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  20. Sweet baby girl ... I hope she is feeling better quickly and that the surgery was a success.

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  21. Poor little girl. I'm sending happy thoughts your way.

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  22. I love that first pic of Addison.. she is so precious...I'm so thankful
    (my prayers were answered) things went well for you all, even though
    I know it had to be hard to go thru.

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  23. Im so glad she is doing well!! SHe is so adorable. Another knotch on the strong mommy belt!

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  24. Am so thankful to hear that things went well. Eyes are marvelously created and they're the body tissue that recovers the quickest according to my specialist. Will continue to pray for a good long-term outcome.
    love,
    Doc
    P.S. Saw my specialist on Mon. He and his wife have a new five day-old baby so he was apologetic for the appointment taking longer. he says I'm not ready for more eye surgery yet so that is a blessing.

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