Last night I stood on stage in front of hundreds of people and conducted my high school string orchestra.
After we were finished (and a little bit between movements) we received thunderous applause from appreciative parents and fellow students.
As the conductor, proud of my students diligent work and fine performance, I turned around and gave a bow, silently saying thank you as I dipped my head down and waved my arm to acknowledge the students.
Applause is a commonplace occurrence in the life of a musician.
It's just one of those things.
After the concert, I started thinking.
How great it would be if there was applause in every day life. (and not fake, mocking applause. genuine acknowledgment of a job well done)
"Oh that was a great dinner." clap clap clap
"That's a beautiful sweater." clap clap clap
"Just wanted to mention that I've noticed all of the hard work that you've been putting in at work and I think you're doing a really great job." clap clap clap
"Tremendously heartwarming blog post today." clap clap clap
and so on and so forth.
But I think we all have this innate need to be applauded in our every day life. (I'm not saying that this is a good or bad thing...I'm simply making an observation)
As I was muddling through today- a bit of a rough day. I kept wishing for just one small word of encouragement from somebody- anybody, and it never came (in regards to something at work).
As I naturally began to feel sorry for myself, it made me reflect- to whom do I give applause?
It's easy for me to judge others others for not noticing me, or for failing to give me that one positive word when I'm ready to dig a hole under my classroom and just hope that everyone forgets that I even exist.
But I think I'm guilty of the same.
I'm sorry if this comes across all preachy and weird. But I've seriously been thinking about this all day and am trying to sort through this.
I want to be more encouraging. I want to be the person that makes the difference on whether someone's day is bright instead of dark.
Yeah, I'm discouraged. Trying to turn it around so that I can figure out how to help others not feel this way. Because after a movie night and almost an entire pan of brownies...I'm still not feelin' it.
I want to applaud others whenever I can.
Because it makes such a big difference.
Even in just the smallest of things.
Now I'm going to go to what always cheers me up. Watch Chubbs sleep so peacefully and plant little kisses on her warm cheeks....what a little angel she is.
Thank goodness it is finally the weekend.